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Scapegoat to Cycle Breaker

Are you the black sheep of your family, constantly criticised and subtly blamed for everything that goes wrong? Are you struggling to understand why you're holding so much guilt and shame and why your siblings appear to be 'fine'? Do you keep looking to the external world for some sense of validation only to be left disappointed over and over again? Are your relationships toxic cycles of rejection, abandonment and abuse? Are you feeling powerless in the face of this all and unsure how to change it? If so, you may be holding what I call, the scapegoat imprint. The scapegoat is the epicentre of unresolved emotions and trauma, they are also chosen by the family system and ancestral lines to live this hardship to walk as the new ancestor and heal the lines. They are the sensitive, empathic and overly nurturing member of the family, the one that sees through the veils, the programming and challenges the status quo. They are the ones that recognise deeply and feel within their bones that something is not right and they are always the ones that are called to healing. If this sounds like you, keep reading because as much as you might feel it, you are not alone!



The scapegoat imprint is a deeply ingrained psychological and emotional pattern that develops in individuals who have been unknowingly and unconsciously assigned the role of the 'scapegoat' within their family system.


This mostly happens in families with narcissistic or dysfunctional parents or parenting style.


This imprint shapes you at a deep level. It affects your self-perception, your ability to live your purpose, feel real joy and freedom and form healthy relationships. It is a heavy imprint to bear, because it mostly is carried alone. This can create a deep sense of sorrow, isolation and loneliness. It can also create deep seated rage and anger because it is a wound of injustice. It feels deeply disproportionate to what you feel capable to holding and it feels like there is no way out.

At its core, the scapegoat imprint creates:

  1. A Burden of Absorbing Disowned Family Shame: As the scapegoat, you unconsciously carry the repressed guilt, shame, and unresolved issues of your family system. You hold all the guilt and shame that your parent(s) have not faced or healed themselves, caused by their parents or their own choices and behaviours. You become the energetic repository for everything the family system has disowned and doesn't want to acknowledge or deal with. You carry it and look around at your family members who appear to be 'fine' (hint: they're not, they're just deeply dissociated and disconnected from their deeper selves) and you wonder if you're going mad. This is the voice of shame.

  2. A Pattern of Relentless Inner Blame and Inner Criticism: You're consistently positioned as the 'problem' in the family, subjected to constant criticism, and blamed for family issues, even when they're not your fault. Your achievements are negated, dismissed or ridiculed. You're damned if you do and damned if you don't. You end up feeling like you're in a trap, set by the people closest to you. When you feel trapped you feel convinced that you have nowhere to turn, nobody to help you. You eventually start to believe that this feeling is you, it's what you are, it belongs inside you, it is your worth. Your suffering is not witnessed or acknowledged and you turn inwards because you have no other option. This leads to unconsciously punishing yourself, whether it's with your thoughts, self sabotaging eating habits, toxic relationships or simply avoiding your true passions and purpose.

  3. A Distorted Self-Image Built on Shame & Unworthiness: Years of negative messaging lead to a deeply ingrained belief that you're fundamentally flawed or unworthy, despite evidence to the contrary. Your self worth becomes fragile and you can become consumed with performing. Scapegoats typically feel they have to overachieve because they are constantly being overlooked. This works for a period of time, until it becomes exhausting, often leading to burn out, adrenal fatigue or the collapse of a marriage or career. The foundations of achievement have been built on a distorted self image of needing to prove your worth rather than live your truth. This distortion eventually comes home to roost, revealing emptiness and shame. You can spend years here believing this is just how life is, and that this is you. It's not. This is just what you've been programmed to believe about yourself, since you were a kid.

  4. An Uncomfortable But Unavoidable Role of Truth-Teller: Often, scapegoats are chosen because they're naturally more perceptive and willing to speak uncomfortable truths that challenge the family's preferred narrative. Your role as the truth speaker is deeply uncomfortable because it comes with heavy responsibility, lack of support and often ostracising from the family system. Having your sense of belonging and safety compromised through a role that you feel was unconsciously imposed upon you can be disturbing and make you feel like a victim. You are not a victim. You have been chosen to illuminate the darkness and end the generational cycles of toxicity and trauma. Unfortunately, the process requires that the work be done through you, and this is embodied work. This means you are forced to live it. This can be confronting but it changes you in ways that makes you unrecognisable vibrationally from your family of origin. It realigns you in the field of your more ancient, powerful and wise ancestors that have chosen you to repair the line. Click here to read more about the different stages of ancestral lineage healing and to dive deeper, you can take my online course, Ancestral Alchemy.

  5. A Struggle for Validation Through Relationships: The constant invalidation within the family creates a persistent need for external validation, which often leads to disappointment and further feelings of unworthiness. The need for validation can lead to over empathy and enmeshment in relationships. It can create anxious attachment dynamics and you can find yourself constantly meeting avoidant people who cannot give you any sense of emotional nourishment. You have become so used to giving and not only not getting anything back in your family of origin, but being criticised, overlooked and attacked or even abused, that you can over empathise with idealised versions of people you meet that are actually fantasy figures. You can end up accepting breadcrumbs because you are so hungry for the validation and love that comes through connection. You can end up moving from partner to partner to try to fill a void of loneliness, believing that something is better than nothing. You might overwork, push yourself when you need to rest and eventually just become someone you're not. The most challenging thing about this is to recognise it in the first place.

  6. A Cycle of Toxic Relationships or Friendships: The family patterns of rejection and emotional abuse often play out in adult relationships, perpetuating the cycle of pain. As the scapegoat in your family if you have always been on the receiving end of unjustified criticism or abuse, you will settle for scraps in relationships. You may even find that somehow, you are choosing people that reinforce the scapegoat imprint and the emotional pain that this role holds- mostly shame, anger, grief. You could even end up completely subservient, people pleasing and subjugating your own basic needs to make the other person stay with you because at some level, this is what you've always done relationally. Chances are, you did this in your family of origin, by virtue of being the scape goat.

  7. A Disconnection from Your Joy, Your Authentic Self & Inner Child : To survive in the family system, you may have buried your true self, leading to a sense of disconnection or loss of identity. As the scapegoat you had particular expectations placed upon you unconsciously that you wouldn't be aware of. Sure, you might be aware of the overt ones, but the subtle ones that have imprinted your field are often hidden.

  8. A Magnet for Narcissistic Abuse: The scapegoat imprint can make you more susceptible to narcissistic abuse. This might sound radical but it's because at some deep level within you, the neglect and abuse is so constant and normalised that it actually is familiar to your nervous system; this is unconscious so do not blame yourself. Narcissists are very calculating and they make a bee line for the over empathising scapegoat who will over compensate, work hard to 'fix' things and constantly absorb the disowned shame, then turning inwards to try to 'fix' themselves because they are now assuming that they are the problem. Meanwhile the narcissist stands back and watches the show, provoking, denying and gaslighting.

    To understand why the narcissist picks you, click here.

    Please click here to read more about the narcissist's childhood trauma wounds.

  9. A Source of Unexplained Guilt and Shame: You may carry intense feelings of guilt and shame without understanding their origin. These emotions actually belong to your parent(s) and the family system rather than to you personally. When you start to look around at the toxic fumes that have filled the family constellation and the field, you will notice that the only person that has not been burying their head in the sand and has been actually FEELING and therefore absorbing everything is infact, you. Like anyone who has spent their entire childhood absorbing toxic fumes, eventually they fall sick. A part of them dies. This part is the inherent pure, innocent, joyful inner child. Click here to read my blog post about shame and religious abuse.

  10. A Potential for Profound Healing: While deeply painful, recognizing your scapegoat imprint is an important step towards healing so many of your emotional and relationship symptoms. You are SO more than the scapegoat. Your innate worth extends so far beyond your family system. The role you've been assigned is a cosmic one. It comes with huge responsibility but also huge priviledge. The priviledge is to walk as the new ancestor. To be the truth that you seek. To create the love you never had. To stand in places where nobody else will go. To embody your true spiritual potential and divinity. To feel this fill your cells and displace all the shame and guilt you've been holding. You have this power. Not the golden child. Not the narcissistic parents who never take accountability to hurting and abusing you. You have the power to live your truth and transcend the wound. As you do this, you will be reunited, regrounded in a deeper holding of unconditional love. This love comes from your ancestors. This love. is what you are. I know that you need to hear this so i'll say it, because you might never hear it from anyone else who understands it as deeply. 'I am truly sorry that your heart has had to break this deep, for you to find the love you truly deserve, the love you truly are, the spiritual force of nature that you exist to be and the cosmic light that is transmuting generations worth of pain. But I am so glad that you did and that you are here now. This is where you deserve to be. You deserve to be you. And you deserve to be seen. You ARE love. Thank you for being here. REMEMBER You are never alone, dear Scapegoat. Look back at your role and throw your headback and laugh because you have found your true calling and divine power. Trust yourself. Use it wisely ;)' This safety comes through your root space. It is an embodiment that runs so deeply through that your ancestors will walk with you in every step you take. You are never alone, dear Scapegoat. Look back at your role and throw your headback and laugh because you have found your true calling and divine power. Trust yourself. Use it wisely ;)




The Scapegoat Role in Narcissistic Family Systems


Every narcissistic family system needs a scapegoat. Unfortunately if you're reading this, it's probably you.


The scapegoat is the tip of the iceberg of what really lies beneath the dysfunctional and narcissistic family system. The dysfunctional family system holds within its web some dark ancestral secrets, unresolved trauma and toxicity. The narcissistic family system unconsciously pits members of the family against each other so that nobody can challenge the system.


The scapegoat is picked to hold the burden of all the unresolved emotions and is blamed for causing all the problems. They are usually ridiculed and ignored or left out by other family members. Nobody in the family comes to the scapegoats aid or supports them with their journey because nobody wants to risk being in their position. As a result, the scapegoat is left isolated and typically walks their path alone, seeking their true soul family because they feel so different from their family of origin. In families with narcissistic parents, there's often an unspoken agreement to maintain some disturbing illusion of perfection when it comes to extended family and the local community.


I see this alot in my clients that have endured childhood sexual abuse within their own family, and it was covered up and concealed to maintain a false illusion of 'perfection' and 'status.'


The narcissistic parent is entirely and unconsciously consumed by their own needs and unable to admit fault. They simply cannot face the fact that they are hurting their own children. They are able to justify everything, including psychological abuse, emotional neglect, physical torture and even sexual abuse. The justification is mostly denial, but it can also be painting the scapegoat out to be mentally unwell, psychotic or a trouble maker. The justifications can also come under the guise of cultural or religious teachings designed to suppress the truth, burden the scapegoat with guilt and silence them.


Click here to read my blog post on religious abuse in the family system.


The narcissistic parent unconsciously projects their own fear, guilt and shame onto the scapegoat because they cannot own it or process it themselves. They are in denial and have not processed their own trauma or emotions. As a result, they need the scapegoat to hold and contain the shame, guilt and fear.




The Golden Child: The Other Side of the Coin


While you were assigned the role of scapegoat, another sibling may have been designated as the "golden child." This role might seem enviable from the outside, but it comes with its own set of challenges and limitations.


The golden child, often the more compliant or submissive sibling, learns early on to suppress their true self to maintain their favored status. They develop a false sense of self, disconnected from their authentic needs and emotions. While they may appear privileged, they're trapped in a gilded cage, unable to fully develop their potential or experience genuine connections with others.


Understanding this dynamic can help you cultivate compassion not only for yourself but also for your siblings who were caught in different, but equally damaging, roles within the family system.



The Impact of Being the Scapegoat


Being the family scapegoat can leaves deep emotional scars that can persist well into adulthood.


You may struggle with:

  1. Low self-esteem

  2. Unworthiness

  3. Chronic guilt and shame

  4. Constant self-doubt

  5. Difficulty forming healthy relationships

  6. A tendency to attract avoidant, abusive or narcissistic partners

  7. Perfectionism or fear of success

  8. Difficulty setting boundaries

  9. Trust issues

  10. Anxiety and depression



10 Powerful Journal Prompts to Transform the Scapegoat Mindset


  1. Reflect on a time when you felt unfairly blamed in your family. How did it make you feel, and how do those feelings still impact you today?

  2. If your inner child could speak freely to your family without fear of consequences, what would they say?

  3. Write a letter to yourself from the perspective of a loving, supportive parent. What words of encouragement and validation would you need to hear?

  4. Identify three of your positive qualities that were often overlooked or dismissed by your family. How have these traits actually benefited you in life?

  5. Describe a situation where you stood up for your truth despite family pressure. How did it feel, and what did you learn about yourself?

  6. Imagine your life free from the burden of family shame and guilt. What would change? How would you behave differently?

  7. Reflect on your relationships outside the family. Can you identify any patterns that mirror your family dynamics? How might you begin to change these patterns?

  8. Write about a time when you felt truly seen and appreciated by someone. How did this experience differ from your family interactions?

  9. If you could go back in time and give your younger self one piece of advice about navigating your family dynamics, what would it be?

  10. Envision yourself as the "cycle breaker" in your family line. What new patterns or traditions would you like to establish for future generations?



From Scapegoat Victim to Empowered Cycle Breaker


While the realization that you were the family scapegoat can initially feel devastating, it also opens the door to profound healing and transformation.


Here's how you can begin your journey from victim to cycle breaker:


  • Acknowledge Your Pain

Allow yourself to feel the full range of emotions that come with this realization. Grief, anger, and sadness are all normal and necessary parts of the healing process. Don't rush to forgive or move on before you've fully processed your feelings.

  • Validate Your Experiences

For years, your reality was denied or distorted by your family. Now is the time to trust your perceptions and honor your experiences. Keep a journal, talk to a therapist, or connect with others who understand what you've been through.

  • Reparent Yourself

As an emotional orphan, you may not have received the nurturing and support you needed as a child. Start giving yourself the love, compassion, and encouragement you always deserved. Treat yourself with kindness and patience as you learn new ways of being.

  • Set Boundaries

Learning to set and maintain healthy boundaries is crucial for your healing. This may involve limiting contact with toxic family members, saying no to unreasonable demands, and prioritizing your own needs and well-being.

  • Develop Self-Trust

Years of gaslighting and emotional manipulation may have eroded your ability to trust yourself. Start small by honoring your feelings and making decisions based on your own judgment rather than seeking constant external validation.

  • Break Trauma Bonds

Recognize and break patterns of trauma bonding in your relationships. Seek out healthy, supportive connections with people who respect your boundaries and celebrate your authentic self.

  1. Cultivate Spiritual Connection

Many scapegoats find strength and solace in developing a spiritual practice. This doesn't necessarily mean organized religion, but rather a personal connection to something greater than yourself. This can provide a sense of protection and guidance as you navigate your healing journey.

  1. Educate Yourself

Learn about narcissistic family dynamics, complex PTSD, and healing modalities. Knowledge is power, and understanding the psychology behind your experiences can help you make sense of your past and chart a course for your future.


  1. Seek Professional Help

Working with a therapist who understands narcissistic abuse and family dynamics can be invaluable in your healing journey. They can provide tools and strategies to process your trauma and develop healthier coping mechanisms.


  1. Connect with Others

Find a healing community where you can be held in a safe space and heal. Sharing your experiences and hearing from others who've been through similar situations can be incredibly validating. Click here to join the Tribe, my global group healing programme.


Becoming the New Ancestor: Breaking Generational Cycles


As you heal and reclaim your authentic self, you have the power to become what I call the "new ancestor" in your family line. This means breaking the cycles of abuse and dysfunction that have been passed down through generations.


By doing your own inner work, you're not just healing yourself, but also creating a ripple effect that can positively impact future generations. You're setting a new standard for how relationships should function and modeling healthier ways of relating and communicating.


This role comes with great responsibility, but also immense personal power. As you shed the anger, shame and guilt that was never yours to carry, you make space for your gifts to emerge.


Many former scapegoats discover that their experiences have given them unique insights and strengths, such as:


  • Deep empathy and compassion for others

  • A strong sense of justice and fairness

  • The ability to see through manipulation and lies

  • Resilience and inner strength

  • A commitment to authenticity and truth-telling

These qualities can become your superpowers as you step into your role as a cycle breaker and new ancestor.

Embracing Your Authentic Self


Healing from being the family scapegoat is a journey, not a destination.


There will be ups and downs, moments of breakthrough and times of struggle. Be patient and gentle with yourself as you navigate this path. You have the power to rewrite your story and create a life that aligns with your true self. As you do this inner work, you may find that:

  • You develop a strong sense of self-trust and intuition

  • Your relationships become more authentic and fulfilling

  • You attract people and opportunities that support your growth

  • You feel more connected to your purpose and passions

  • You experience a sense of inner peace and self-acceptance

This journey of healing and self-discovery is deeply personal and unique to each individual. While the path may not always be easy, the rewards of reclaiming your authentic self and breaking generational cycles are immeasurable.

Take the Next Step in Your Healing Journey

You were chosen for this role because of your innate ability to see and speak the truth. Your honesty and authenticity threatened the carefully constructed facade of family harmony, making you a target for criticism and blame. While this treatment was deeply unfair and damaging, it's important to understand that it wasn't about you as an individual, but about the dysfunctional family system as a whole.


While deeply painful, recognizing your scapegoat imprint is an important step towards healing so many of your emotional and relationship symptoms.


You are SO more than the scapegoat. Your innate worth extends so far beyond your family system. The role you've been assigned is a cosmic one. It comes with huge responsibility but also huge privilege. The privilege is to walk as the new ancestor. To be the truth that you seek. To create the love you never had. To stand in places where nobody else will go. To embody your true spiritual potential and divinity. To feel this fill your cells and displace all the shame and guilt you've been holding. You have this power. Not the golden child. Not the narcissistic parents who never take accountability to hurting and abusing you. You have the power to live your truth and transcend the wound.


As you do this, you will be reunited, regrounded in a deeper holding of unconditional love. This love comes from your ancestors. This love. is what you are.I know that you need to hear this so i'll say it, because you might never hear it from anyone else who understands it as deeply.


'I am truly sorry that your heart has had to break this deep, for you to find the love you truly deserve, the love you truly are, the spiritual force of nature that you exist to be and the cosmic light that is transmuting generations worth of pain. But I am so glad that you did and that you are here now. This is where you deserve to be. You deserve to be you. And you deserve to be seen. You ARE love. Thank you for being here. REMEMBER You are never alone, dear Scapegoat. Look back at your role and throw your headback and laugh because you have found your true calling and divine power. Trust yourself. Use it wisely ;)'





If you're ready to dive deeper into your healing journey and break free from the scapegoat role, I'm here to support you.


My online courses offer targeted guidance and tools to help you navigate the complexities of healing from narcissistic family dynamics and childhood trauma, including childhood sexual abuse.

For personalized support, I invite you to book a one-on-one call with me. Together, we can explore your unique experiences, identify patterns that may be holding you back, and create a tailored plan for your healing and growth.

Remember, you are not alone in this journey. By taking this step to understand and heal from your past, you're already breaking the cycle and paving the way for a more authentic, fulfilling life. You have the strength and resilience to transform your pain into power and become the author of your own story.

Are you ready to embrace your role as a cycle breaker and new ancestor? Take the first step today by booking a consultation or enrolling in one of my courses. Your future self will thank you for the courage and commitment you're showing right now.


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