A True Seeker is Self Destructive

A true seeker is self destructive.

Every version of your self that you attempt to create through seeking divine truth will eventually end in a puddle of tears beneath your feet. You must come to understand this, if you are to walk this path.

The seeker does not seek labels or belonging, does not need fame or acclaim. They will walk alone in the desert if it means to be themself, soul illuminated and mind turned to dust.

The seeker will destroy themselves at every turn, in the flames of love they will let their ego burn.

Does it hurt? Oh yes, for a few moments or more it will feel like torture and will create more questions than answers.

So what is the solution? Feel the pain and then return again, to the place of not knowing, to the great mystery of Divine love.

The willingness to burn in the flames is what invites the return.

To do this, you must be self destructive.

When you forget, you begin to accumulate, identify, entitle yourself to something that fits your identity. Your whole being becomes orientated to that which you have created with your own mind, emotion and experiences. This is when you are in most danger. The danger is that you will begin to believe that this is you. You will fall for the illusion of your own identity, the way a caged bird believes the cage is its home.

You must flee the nest, set yourself on fire, destroy yourself in the Ultimate truth, the Ultimate mystery, that which can never be known and never be annihilated.

You are here to become self destructive.

So when you feel it all slipping away, this is when you must dig deeper and instead of grasping to what is now being destroyed. You must ask yourself, what am I when this is taken away? What is left of me, when what I think I am, is no longer?

You must accept this as a divine blessing, your soul reminding you what you are and what you are not.

To remember, you must be still enough to listen, to feel, to accept the divine assignment. You are not here to build towers on fragile ground, you are here to destroy yourself, to become the dust.

When you accept this calling, this plunge into the void that cannot be rationalised, explained, soothed or distracted, you will soon hear the quiet whisper of your soul.

This whisper will remind you that somehow, in this great destruction you are meeting your own creation.

You are closer to the unseen and unknowable emptiness than you have ever been.

What does this give you? Nothing at all. If it gave you something, it would be a temporary relief in exchange for a longer term problem. This is not a trade that the divine likes to make, for it is ultimately unfair and the divine is absolute fairness by design.

What your ego considers injustice is a blessing, what your mind fears most is divine love, what your heart considers betrayal is a great reunion with your soul.

You must seek your destruction more than you seek to build temples. You must seek to dance in the flames of annihilation and learn to enjoy it, more than you weep over your wounds and burns. Weeping will extinguish the fire, and it is this fire that you need the most, for it is only the fire that burns all illusion and returns you to dust, to ash, to the ground, to begin again.

When what is being destroyed is what no longer serves you, it is easier to accept. You will have a template of what is happening and you will have already unconsciously started a rebuilding process.

When what is being destroyed is virtuous and good, is from love, services and light, this is when you are truly being initiated into divine love. You will have nowhere to cling and nowhere to go, except deeper into your soul.

This will not happen before your time. It will not happen unless you have the soul architecture to support, sustain and accept this in your lifetime. Rather than feeling like your faith being tested, as in the first condition, you will feel your faith being re-ignited-like a thousand horses galloping into the horizon, with a force of courage, strength and direction. Will they wait for you to be ready? No, there is no waiting, for it is already done. Your soul has already architected and accepted it's fate. As a seeker, there is no waiting and no delay. There is only a silent arrival in the present within.

Nobody will be here waiting for you either, there are no glad tidings and there is no comfort. Perhaps you will meet the wise ones and the guiding spirits within you, they will feel like companions, etched into the light of your being. You will communicate with only the heart's purity, for no other language will be needed. They will not offer comfort, but they will offer the example that you can learn from. You have to learn through your own being, how to be your true self. This realm is not for those seeking comfort or refuge, it is for those seeking the Absolute truth. And for this, you should be exceptionally grateful, for comfort creates another cage that you will soon have to destroy, to set yourself free to seek again in this great Mystery.

In this place or state of consciousness, there is no path and no teacher. You can become easily lost if you do not keep close to the ground and lower your gaze. Everything above will no longer entertain you, nor should it entrap you. There is only a surrender and a letting go of there needing to be a path and a way.

Now, you have become the way. This means every step you take is a sacred offering. What are you offering? You are offering yourself.

You will feel different within you, you will not seek to go anywhere or become anything, you will seek only to remain as dust, close to the ground.

Be aware, there will be some people that walk on you, they see dust only as dirt, and it will fuel another creative identity, but you will be destroyed again, at an even deeper level eventually.

If you do embrace the divine assignment and return to your soul, you will also find some people that look up to the sky on a dark night and see you dancing as star dust around the moon. These are your companions, a cosmic constellation of information pulsing as light waves through unseen realms, connecting and dancing for no good reason except because they can. Together you will go, step by step, into the long road to nowhere.

Nothing becomes of you here, and nothing becomes of them. That is your liberation. There is no beginning of this road and there is no end. You may find eventually, that you laugh a little at yourself and the games you used to play to become someone, but you will soon be in peace.

Your soul will embrace you, the way the moonlight embraces the mystery of the night, the way the sun embraces the vast blue sky, the way the rivers embrace the sea.

So begin and end here, dance in the flames of your own destruction. Rest in the eternal peace of your soul.